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It’s sunny in London lately and unlike everyone else who is getting that summer feeling, my outlook is pretty gloomy. Dark clouds are still hovering over and with no wind in sight; I can’t see how it will blow over. All this brings the question about outlook. I’m pretty much not content with most things that’s happening right now. Perhaps that primarily the reason but I guess most driven person will never be content. Thinking back, have I really been content before? I think not.

I believe in a pretty binary system when it comes to being contect in ones life. If you're achieving everything you put your mind into, then you pretty much should be content. But, if for any reason all the things you've planned have not gone to fruition, how can anyone be happy? Simple right, result equates to 1 and no result, zero.

Brunette told me that I should be patient because sometimes it takes a longer time but I've been rather (inhumanely) patient all this while. Now, frustration is getting stronger and if not checked, anger will slowly creep up. This is not something I want to happen, not at all. How long is long? I don't want to live for life sake, what kind of life is that.